My last breakup wasn't horrible or easy it just hurt. It sucked losing my best friend and was forced to act like it didn't bother me, like it never hurt me at all. But dear God that was the buggiest lie I've ever told in my life.
I'm not going to say names, or put anyone on blast that's immature. I want to talk about the lost and pain but happiness I found within it. I dated someone for about two years and five months or so and they were probably some of the best years of my life. We were bestfriends and almost spent every day together. He made me feel like I was everything he needed and wanted and I did the same for him. Shoot you could of asked me and I would of told you we probably would get married one day, hell as told each other that. But things happened, and we both changed and did stuff to each other that things that should of never been said. He fell out of love and in love with someone else and I got stranded, alone, and empty.
It always seems to me that guys always move on the fastest in a break up than girls do. It wasn't even a week before he was talking to someone else and less than a month before they were dating and it hit me like a rock. I turned to alcohol to drown out the pain, and partying to keep me from being alone. At first I couldn't even think about eating And got so obsessed with working out. I exhausted my body out psychically and mentally. I let my dog slip away, it felt like a death in a family. I am fine now, don't get me wrong i have moved on. But things still get to me, like the fact that he screwed up but still got the dog, he left me broken and didn't care, but still got to fall in love again. It's not fair how life does that to you, the bad guy always ends up getting more than the victim.
Anyways I felt like venting and talking about how my ex won, but he didn't. I'm more confidant now, happier living in college station, and more friends than I could ever ask for. It's just lonely nights and seeing small things that get me still.
"If you think you were happy with the wrong person wait till the right one comes along"
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