Late nights like tonight

I didn't start having insomnia till the end of the summer I don't know what made it start happening but it blows on nights like tonight. My mind races on and on like a freaking hamster wheel. I think about all of the could of beens, should of beens, and would of beens. I get all into my emotions cause I have nothing to distract me from doing so. Tonight, well tonight the thoughts that are running through my head are the big R word, relationships. 

The relationships I create in my life are so freaking weird. I have my best friends of course and they know who they are. I have my family, and my friends, the weird one is my relationship with guys. It's so cliché  for a girl to be complaining about guys on a blog website but whatever I'm a girl lol 

The relationships I've found this past school year living in Cstat have been.. Interesting to say the least. You have the one nighters that pretty much sums up half the population of college guys, than you have the "I don't know what I want but I still want to act like you're mine" guy, and then my all time favorite, "I really like you, but I don't want a relationship right now" guy. But I think the one that is really known is the, "I really like you... (Disappears in three days)," guy. I'm not saying girls aren't the same way cause lord knows I am. I hate emotions, I loathe them entirely, and so I don't know which category I would even put myself in. I just know I would rather not be fed the bull crap of bringing in emotions if you don't plan on acting on them. Tell the girl strait up, I just want a hook up, or if you're emotionally interested. Than maybe MAYBE people will actually trust the next person they're with. Instead of second guessing if they're going to disappear the next day. 

Just saying.